Today has been so somehow my people. I woke up to messages from my sister, and I just felt so so so… exceedingly homesick!
Her messages were not sad o (Well, maybe some parts were). But you know how just one sentence can bring lots and lots of memories, many wishes and hopes.
Anyway, after reading her messages, I put on my workout clothes and went for a run! 💪🏾🏃🏽♀️ Before ehn, I would have sliced yam, boiled it, and made some mean fish and/or corned beef stew! I chose to run instead. My choice made me proud of myself, I won’t lie. Pandora chose to keep me in the mellow mood though. The songs that were streaming were surely not the songs I needed. I needed some upbeat, happy, forget your worries kinda songs! I however listened to variations of “I will be still and know you are God” and “It is well with my soul”!
Maybe that’s why I have felt quite low all day. This “lowness” can also be because I simply wish I could see my mom! You see, I worry about her a lot. She is such a strong woman, she does so much, works so hard, cares for so many, and she always completely forgets to take care of herself! My being so far away, where I can’t go check on her on a whim is not just something I had ever ever envisaged. I always thought I will be close by. I worry about her. I really do.😔😟
Hmmmm… (Scatching my head) Come to think of it, that’s not the only reason I feel low. There are two other ones that I think are key, and I will mention them.
I am lonely!!!😂😳😫😭 I don’t know if I should be laughing or crying.lol. Today, I was hoping, as I went to pick little madam from school that I will get a mom to even talk to! Ha! Desperate abi? See my life. For those of you who don’t know me, I love having people around me, even though I tell myself I am fine by myself too. The past couple of weeks have seen three people very dear to me moving away. (Mrs X’s fan, Mandy, and Sis D, see what you have done to me!) These were people I saw every week, and enjoyed spending time with. Now, they have left me in another man’s land all by myself!😥😢😢😢
The last reason, Mr.X can travel fa! Chei!!! If he is not travelling, he is so busy! Another trip is on the burner, and I am not finding it funny one bit! No face to face laughter infested adult conversations for days!😭😭😭 Mehnnnn…. living away from home isn’t fun; moving ever so often isn’t exciting, at least not for me! 😥 It’s been almost a decade, and I am not close to being used to it. I just want to go home, I want my sister’s drama, I want my mommy’s wrongly used slangs and silent treatment (that woman is a pro in giving you silent treatment when you mess up! You know I truly miss home when I miss even that!😝). I want my friends and family, with all their excitement and baggage. I want noise, I want boisterous laughter, I want Suya, I want boli and epa, I want Plantain chips, I want silver bird popcorn, I want…. I want…. I just want to go home!😫😫😫🙈🙈🙈
I sound like a baby right? Well, I don’t care! Think what you like, roll your eyes, hiss, judge me.🙄😒 Like, I said, I don’t care. It’s your cup of hot milo. Drink it.🙄 😝
I simply miss home, I really really do.🙈🙈🙈